I have been reading some kinky filth (*read lovely, kinky stories ;) ) yesterday night. Suddenly I had this weird thought. Could I take a caning while being absolutely stoical? Could I take it without moving out of position?
A dozen would sound ideally. But I'm not as much of a optimist. Let's say 6. Could I take a well-measured 6 strokes of the cane without a warm-up and without moving out of position?
Suppose it depends on the day and how I feel. But even assuming the kinkiest day of my life I'm sure the answer is no. And that prompted more thoughts. Why am I so stoic pain-wise in vanilla situations but not in kinky? Why is it so easy to cry during or after a scene but so few vanilla people ever saw me crying?
Or what's more important can my head go into a headspace that would allow me take any caning stoically? Can fear of the pain be sufficient to get me into a headspace?
I have no idea why I got so obsessed with the subject so suddenly. I have never cared much about being stoic. On the contrary as someone who started exploration of the kink through spanking shoots (Gosh! Almost 4 years ago!!!) its the reaction to the pain I always cared about. I like wriggling, I like moving out of position, I like flinching...and I like removing my hair to let the top (on camera or in private play) see that I cry. All that is part of me by now, its who I am when I play not someone I choose to become.
Why on earth would I now have a fantasy of being stoic? I wonder how it actually feels to 'come victorious' from a scene. Maybe if I knew that I would also know why I suddenly crave it.
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See, that sounds like an experiment that needs to be tested in practice ;-)
ReplyDeleteGreat post!
Not fond of experiments that are bound to fail... :(
ReplyDeleteThe evolution of our kinks is an interesting thing. No telling what we might crave or be excited by in the future.
ReplyDeleteIn a spanking scene, I've always liked to see fragility and vulnerability as in your scenes. I like to see strong reactions, desperation in movement, and cathartic outpourings of emotion. ***For it to work, the one doing the reacting must be getting what they need or want*** A scene where you have the ambition to be stoic, but you're unable to take your 6 well-measured strokes of the cane without ultimately moving or crying, is exciting. If you could somehow emerge "victorious" from the scene, it would be a good scene and rewarding for you, but I do like when the cane is a "winner". I think that's my kink, the power that dominates and renders you helpless and too fragile to even appear to be in control. In my eyes that makes you a winner, as well, because the scene is taking you where your kink wants to go.
I like being stoic sometimes - but usually that;s when I'm in a resisting, rebellious mood and that doesn't always bode well for a scene!
ReplyDeleteIt works best when I'm truly sorry and trying to be penitent, but that's not so often ;-)
As for tears, I think the most stoic is a girl who takes the caning but cries silently. Very hot!
Kami, it's really interesting to see how our cravings change from time to time. Normally our kinks seem to be very different and now you are craving exactly one of my core kink scenarios. I'm curious to hear how it worked for you, should you ever try it for real!
ReplyDeleteI guess what makes it possible to remain stoic during a caning is a warm-up or a slow built-up, combined with at least a short time between the strokes or sets of strokes that give you a chance to catch your breath and regain your composure. At least this is true for me. Not sure whether it works for you, though, because as I understand it your style of taking a spanking is very different from mine, and I'm not sure whether a slower pace and breaks between the strokes allows you to get deep enough into the right headspace. But I'm sure you'll find a form that suites you!