New Year afterthoughts - subdrop?

I’m in a funny state right now. I both want and don’t want to play.

I don’t want to play because
a) I’m played out after the few days with HH (which were rather well spent ;) )
b) We did some extraordinary scenes and currently I’m having the feeling that NOTHING, EVER will be as good.

I do want to play because it’s the ‘curse’ of my kinkiness – rarely feel otherwise ;)

It’s all rather very confusing.